Learn To Live With Yourself
Have you ever enjoyed your own company? Not talking to people. Not thinking about people. You stay with your thoughts and trace each chain like you're on an investigation of your own. I believe everyone should spend a day or two living with themselves—if only to realize how horrible they are.
Most of us aren't the most interesting company. At the first sign of solitude, we drown ourselves in movies, short-form videos, social media, or call somebody—but seldom do we stay with ourselves. It's fine if you pick a book to read; the goal is to let your thoughts run free. One may ask: what's the point of this torture? Why bother going through the same thoughts again and again when we already know what they are?
That's precisely the point. Trace the origin of all your thoughts. Become comfortable living with yourself to the point where your thoughts don't scare you. There are people who drown in thoughts so deeply they develop anxiety that leads to panic attacks. They become certain they'll die alone with no one to save them. If only one could objectively isolate the thought that's frightening them, trace its origin to the source along with its sub-branches—they'd find the root cause behind such thoughts.
The next step is resolution, which is easier than you realize. Once you identify the source, all you have to do is rationalize from that point. Most people rationalize while feeling anxious—it will never work. The purpose of solitude is to familiarize yourself with your true self. Confront that person. Befriend that person if possible. Forgive that person. And then learn to live with that person.
You must know the origin of all your thoughts. If not, trace them back to their source. You may not succeed on day one, but you don't have to succeed on the first day—you just have to keep digging. Do not betray the person residing within you. Do not drown their voice through distractions.
Your subconscious deserves better. Be kinder to that inner self. He has suffered too.